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I want to cover my body in tattoos, I want to live freely.  A life with no strings attached, nobody to worry.  And  I Wish I could paint you a picture of what I see, because it holds such beauty.  The light falls down so slowly, and the birds are finally singing.  
They won't let you in.  It is something you cannot see.  The glorious worlds trapped inside of me,  Left me consumed with sadness, for it is something that even I can never reach.  The beautiful painting draining just from my reach.  So I'll strive towards it, I'll sail the endless paths across the sea.  Where the waves can sing soft melodies to me.  
The places and faces that left me entirely breathless and empty.  For the horrors of this cracked reality.  
Let me leak into those cracks, let me become that darkness.  Disappearing always seemed so easy.  
For one day I will wake up and this will have all been a dream, and that beauty in my head will be what makes me.  
For now I am trapped here, forgotten in this tight useless skin.  This life isn't a game.  It isn't something to win. And slowly I watch everything fade to black, the final scene.  What happened to the light, and the birds no longer sing.  It seems that I have drifted too deep.  To sink or to swim, or to be swallowed by this sea. 
Because this is me fighting,  I can no longer see my hands.  And the worlds seem to be slowly fading, I wish them to never leave me.  What am I left to but myself when these things are gone.  Please don't leave me alone, please don't let me be.  There is nowhere to go when there is nothing. 
I miss you forgotten faces.
You mean so much to me.  
Please oh please someone wake me up,
From this wretched dream.